I found our old scrap books today, all the photos and memorys left me feeling so fucking small. How can i continue on knowing everything i lost? We used to be everything, we used to the reason the sun shined. We loved eachother unconditionally and we didnt have to try…didnt have to pretend like the rest of them. I riddle my mind thinking were exactly we went wrong…what could have killed a fire so strong? I try and run and fill voids but at the end of the day i feel as empty as i ever have…all the while trying to convince myself im better off. Everything i do reminds me of you…and each time im crippled by the memories of our glory days. I feel like no one understand…i try and talk and the words come out of my mouth but everyone just nods and tells me what they think i want to hear. I just feel so lost…my feelings misunderstood. After all the pain and betrayal you cuased me i thought it would be easy to leave you…easy to leave everything we had behind…but i was wrong. I was so fucking wrong.