I’m fucking up. I feel it and I know it’s true, but my fear keeps me here. How did I even get here. I have somehow gotten myself falling into an empty life. I’m so caught up in pretending that I have lost all the parts of me that made me feel real. I don’t even know myself anymore. Who is this reckless person who does all the tired things I do. I can’t talk about this with anyone…I can see it on their faces. “There’s DJ up to his same old tricks”.